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Holding Pattern

by The Celebrators

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1.
This holding pattern is holding me again Can’t get this place I’m in The past, the present, the inbetween When all I want is in front of me When all I want is reality Tell me a lie Stay with me tonight May tomorrow never come When all I want to do Is bury the truth But I’m stuck Unless Oh this holding pattern is holding me again Stop me if I say the same old shit Round and round and round and round and round we go I don’t want to stop Cause then I’ll know I’m not just dizzy This is my reality This is my reality Oh ya this is my reality
2.
Blue Mtns. 05:33
I slept in a valley, lush and green Outside it was desert, harsh and mean I knew all the seasons Fall winter summer spring In my Blue Mountains Sing to me Blue Mountains Sing to me once again Oh yes just sing to me Blue Mountains Sing to me once again Now I find myself in the city Wind blew me east Trying to make this home Figure out what that means You see it’s just all of this pavement’s all filled up with memories Left mine back home So won’t you sing to me Blue Mountains Sing to me once again Oh yes just sing to me Blue Mountains Sing to me once again Oh now I’m gone away while my heart stays Wrapped in your valley Till the day when I can say I’m home again oh I’m home again I live in a dream now I find reality in my sleep Looking for Blue Mountains I like to think that they’re looking for me Won’t you sing to me Blue Mountains Sing to me once again Yes just sing to me Blue Mountains Sing to me once again Oh yes just sing to me Blue Mountains Sing to me once again
3.
Shoot me down Go on break my heart Tell me that you wish this love, it never would’ve start Tell me lies with those deceptive eyes Why won’t you let me hold your truth just for tonight Because I think you should know you’ll never scare me away Ya I think you should know that I’m here to stay You’re a part of me You’re the start of me And together we will meet our end As lovers, enemies and friends Ya we’re lovers, enemies I know it’s hurting you That you’re hurting me I know cause when I break you down I feel the same damn thing So just save your words Save your apologies Oh ya I may need to borrow one And you just may need one from me Oh I think you should know Oh no you’ll never scare me away I think you should know that I’m here to stay You’re a part of me You’re the start of me And together we will meet our end As lovers, enemies and friends Ya we’re lovers, enemies and friends I know that you’re the silent soldier You know I’m the talking king Well maybe we can find the middle I’ll look for you Won’t you look for me Look for me You’re the start of me You’re a part of me And together we will meet our end As lovers, enemies and friends Ya we’re lovers, enemies We’re just lovers, lovers, enemies Don’t you know we’re just lovers Lovers, enemies Lovers, enemies and friends
4.
Bittersweet 03:54
I thought I’d turned the corner, left it all behind But I can’t help from looking back Can’t take my eyes away from something so awful Like stopping at the scene of a crash But it ain’t all bad you know the life that I have Well it’s aging like a fine, fine wine It ain’t orthodox, no life’s a paradox Can’t find those guiding lines But I’ll keep on pressing on Cause I know, it won’t be long Now I’m just plucking petals off of a daisy Saying life loves me, she loves me not It’s a little of both it ain’t one or the other Like a fever feeling cold when I’m just hot Well hate and love they’re walking hand in hand You know I can’t get that good without some of that bad No they’re partners in crime, it’s the darkness and light Even the best of times feel like a fight But I’ll keep on pressing on Because I know, it won’t be long Cause with the good comes the bad and all that I have It all starts to slip away Well in with the new to put a smile on my face But I can’t get rid of that sour taste No, I’m finding out what it means to be bittersweet Bittersweet With the good comes the bad and all that I have It all starts to slip away Well in with the new to put a smile on my face But I can’t get rid of that sour taste No, I’m finding out what it means to be bittersweet Ya I’m finding out what it means to be bittersweet Don’t you know I’m finding out what it means to be bittersweet Bittersweet
5.
Don’t get me too high Don’t swing me so low Why you going so fast? Dragging me too slow I wanna be with you Why you trying to run me? When all that I don’t want Is exactly what I need All the ways is how I want it Everything at once The highs, the lows, the fasts and slows When the sickness is the cure Promises mean nothing When riches leave you poor Less will give you more When all I want is nothing When everything’s not as it seems Silence screaming something What does it all mean? All’s not as it seems I once knew a man Whose plans were so grand They were bound to let him down Lying broken on the ground Well dreams may come true As they often sometimes do But it’s never how you dreamed Let em through Let it be All the ways is how I want it Everything at once The highs, the lows, the fasts and slows When the sickness is the cure Promises mean nothing When riches leave you poor Less will give you more When all I want is nothing When everything’s not as it seems Silence screaming something What does it all mean? All’s not as it seems All the ways is how I want it Everything at once The highs, the lows, the fasts and slows When the sickness is the cure Promises mean nothing When riches leave you poor Less will give you more When all I want is nothing When everything’s not as it seems Silence screaming something What does it all mean? All’s not as it seems
6.
Start Anew 04:51
They say, “How you doing? How ya been?” And I’m not even sure where to begin She left me for dead by the side of the road No maps, no clues, no idea where the hell to go Where to go This is how to be happy with a broken heart When you don’t even know the best place to start When she’s pulled you through and you don’t know what you to do You just start anew Start anew Start anew It’s been four long, hard weeks since I last heard from you I’ve been up I’ve been down I’ve been everywhere in between too Oh no but you wouldn’t know, no you don’t even care So on my sleeve my heart will just a scar I bare This is how to be happy with a broken heart When you don’t even know the best place to start When she’s pulled you through and you don’t know what you to do No you just start anew Start anew This is how to be happy with a broken heart When you don’t even know the best place to start When she’s come and pulled you through and you don’t know what you to do Oh no you just start anew Start anew They say, “How you doing? How ya been?”
7.
Late night call Couple of beers My tongues untied Just a hint of fear Loose enough to call it like I see Life’s convoluted, what does it all mean? What does it all mean? Here the roads cross Time to choose your way How can you change everything and feel exactly the same? Love, she’s a goddamn bitch You’re scratching at the surface but you can’t reach the itch You try to kill the pain Well maybe it’s supposed to stay So you run to the end of the line And once your there I think you’ll find What you’re running from is what you’re running to All alone with you lies Lies and truth I can feel you hiding behind those walls cAnd ss the truth leaks in they’re starting to fall Why you scared? Can’t get much worse It ain’t that bad Go and find a cure Only you can know Just how far you’ve left go So you run to the end of the line And once your there I think you’ll find What you’re running from is what you’re running to All alone with you lies Lies and truth -Break- So you run to the end of the line And once your there I think you’ll find What you’re running from is what you’re running to All alone with you lies Lies and truth
8.
Move Along 07:00
I’ve been searching for her love too long Looking so hard I lost track and now the rest is all gone Now even if I find her it will be at what cost So much has slipped away and left me feeling lost Now I’m starting to see oh maybe it’s me And her kind of love is just not what I need I can’t seem to let it go Convince myself to really know she’s gone So everyone I ever meet leaves me feeling incomplete What is wrong I’m searching for the right thing in all the wrong ways Time to move along Move along Now I’m trying to fit a square peg in a round hole Ya I’m rhyming with silver that killer she’s taken her toll Oh I know I ain’t much But it’s that I’ve got That’s for better or worse Like it or not Oh ya this is me and I’m trying to let go It all happened so fast but the pain, the pain moves slow Up and down, day by day It never really goes away I can feel her in the fog In my head then she’s gone But never for too long No I’m searching for the right thing in all the wrong ways Time to move along Move along
9.
Back to Life 05:40
Wandering, and I’m wandering been wandering for days Wondering, and I’m wondering just how it’s gonna be You see it’s been too long Lately it’s just all gone wrong I don’t know what to believe It’s never been so easy For me to feel so free Is this how it’s supposed to be? Is this how it’s supposed to be? I’m starting and stopping, and I’m flailing and flopping Trying to make out the real crimes Like where do I go, what do I even know? Well I’m just searching the darkness for some light I don’t expect to hear the answers come in clear, no But that’s not why I ask It’s just so hard to believe That it could be so easy For me to feel so free Is this how it’s supposed to be? Is this how it’s supposed to be? It’s coming on slow But starting to show One day soon I’m gonna be fine I’m rising from the dead, getting ahead Coming on back to life You see it’s been so hard holding this broken heart But I’m picking up the pieces part by part And I’ve gotta believe In what’s in front of me Woke up from a dream had myself a scream A drink, a think, goodbye I tried to shake the sleep but I couldn’t even see It wasn’t there for me the whole time So why’d I hesitate? Sometimes it takes the wait for the weight to be left behind It’s just so hard to believe It’s finally coming on easy No but nothing ever comes for free Oh yeah you gotta believe You know I gotta believe It’s coming on slow But starting to show One day soon I’m gonna be fine I’m rising from the dead, getting ahead Coming on back to life You see it’s been so hard holding this broken heart But I’m picking up the pieces part by part And I’ve gotta believe In what’s in front of me x2
10.
Cigarettes and marijuana Hit the road and I’m a goner This holding pattern is holding me too long The devil well she held me tight Through a long, cold, lonely night She’s had me feeling every shade of blue But the daylight’s come It’s time to change my tune I ain’t changed much, but I’m not the same No I’m dug down deeper in my own way She’s made me see all I believe It’s all I need Love, hope, peace I came in screaming like being born And it almost killed me left me broken, torn Love never leaves as easy as it came And all those things that are in between Everything I thought I’d need Maybe they’re best left as memories I ain’t changed much, but I’m not the same No I’m dug down deeper in my own way She’s made me see all I believe It’s all I need Love, hope, peace Cigarettes and marijuana Hit the road, I’m a goner This holding pattern is holding me too long It’s time I hit the road, it’s time for me to get gone Gone

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Recorded in Spring of 2017 at the Map Room Studios in Portland, Oregon by engineer Josh Powell. Mastered at Telegraph Mastering by Adam Gonsalves. Special thanks to Mike Coykendall for his help on the songs before we entered the studio. Additional recording done at Pilot House Studios in Boston, Massachusetts by Christopher Lee.

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released January 7, 2019

Engineered by Josh Powell
Produced by Josh Powell and Nicolai Carrera
Nicolai Carrera- Guitar, Vocals
Christopher "Crocodile" Kramer- Guitar, Keys
Aaron Tackett- Bass
Zachary Winterton- Drums
Christopher Lee- Percussion, Synths
Many thanks owed to Tyler Varnau and Bryan Garfinkel for their contributions to this music before, during, after and ahead.

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The Celebrators Portland, Oregon

The Celebrators are a four piece rock band from Portland, OR that pulls from a wide range of influences resulting in a dynamic, energizing, original sound. The emphasis on a collaborative spirit within the band and their creative process produces songs that simultaneously remind of you of familiar favorites from the past while still belonging in today's catalogue of guitar driven music. ... more

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